"How much can you learn in a year?", I wonder..

Well, I don't think there's an answer to that.. but I sure feel that I have learned, am learning, a lot this year.

I learned a lot about Psychology, that's for sure. One good news is that I might be able to graduate before the August next year! I actually plan to finish at the end of December but I just learned that I could begin my thesis NOW. I need to get 3 chapters of a thesis done for one of my papers I am doing this semester anyway (for a mock research proposal defense) but I could continue with the topic if I want too.. and that's my plan. One thing for sure, I'm definitely leaving Bangkok and heading back to NZ after I finished. I still don't know how my parents will deal with that but I guess there's no point worrying about it at this point in time.

So.. I'll take it one step at the time and "cross the bridge when I have to".. I am sure that it will all turn out for the best.

My trip

My Trip

was cancelled...........................................

Bum... 

Hey guys.. I've put up a new blog called "Little Miss" and Mel recommended that I should actually mention it in my first blog.. or else people wouldn't noticed that it exist.. so yeah, this is just to inform you that I have put up another blog and hopefully you guys would give it a visit and leave comments every now and then.. just to keep it alive, y'know.

Choa~

I learned how to juggle!!.......... with two balls.

Yes yes.. it's not exactly exciting but gosh.. it was so much fun! Well, there is an exchange student from Belgium who would be joining us in our MSCP course for this semester. His name is Ben (what's with me and the guy with the name "Ben") and he actually went to circus school when he was young. Imagine that!! Circus school!! I've never met anyone who went to circus school before. Whoa~~ Anyway, last Wednesday after class I was walking to meet up with my mom when I saw him juggling... Ben (the other Ben, my boyfriend) told me that juggling is great for concentration and always telling me that I should juggle. I never get a chance to learn and suddenly, out of the blue... here's Ben (the Belgium Ben)!! Awesomness!! Strangely, I juggle better when I'm talking.. weird.. maybe I am actually good at multi tasking.

Next week me department is going to Rayong for a weekend of fun. I can't wait.. I would be going to the beach... jealous guys?? Hehehe.. would take heaps of photos and would post them up on flickr... this is going to be great!!!

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"
~ Eleanor Roosevelt ~

Last night during my lecture, I found it hard to concentrate as I was feeling so angry about the whole situation at the school earlier. I replayed it over and over and over in my head and getting angrier and angrier and angrier by the minute. So during the break of my 3 hours lecture, I decided to get on the internet and check my e-mail. Suddenly, out of the blue, I decided to googled on "angry quotes".. and I found this quote by Eleanor Roosevelt. It totally put things in perspective. It made me think "Why am I so mad about this? Why I feel as if the whole situation is all my fault and I was not a good co-worker? WHY DO I FEEL INFERIOR?"...

It's because I let it get to me. I allowed those words to hurt me.

It was not easy letting it go. But once I did it, I knew I did the right thing. I was able to slept soundly last night.. I wouldn't otherwise. I woke up today.. feeling so much better...but still couldn't get on with the day without a big cup of coffee.

Aaah.. coffee

I quit my job last week on Thursday.. after a big argument with my ex-boss about how I think she's been using me to do jobs that are not in my job description and how I can not and will not do that for her anymore. After I spent the while of Tuesday and Wednesday cutting, laminating, and cutting 600 pieces of paper.. she claimed that I've been absent from my job, I know that I can not stand this place anymore.

Strange, really, because a few times during that day. I doubt my decision.

But now, after I went back to my work place to get my recommendation letter, I realised that I am glad I quit. The principal of the school, who suppose to be non-judgemental and fair, did not even take interest to hear about MY side of the story. After my argument with my ex-boss, he asked me to go to his office. He sat down and asked me if it's trute that I would like to quit my job. I replied "Yes".. and he said "Can I have you resignation today?" I told him that I don't have my resignation as I decided to quit less than an hour ago. He handed me a piece of A4 paper and told me to write down my resignation and give it to him before the end of the day. He also said that I don't have to come back to school after that day. I was expecting a fair treatment but apparently, I was wrong. It is the same today.. I thought that it had ended but the principal, who is a NZer, started to tell me how rude I am and threatened that he would use his relationship to his influential friends in NZ government if he ever find out that I am trying to get back into the country....

I would so sue him if he does that (Can he do that, Sam?)

What the world has come to? I wonder.. I thought that I could receive fair treatment and justice from educated people but I guess I was very naive

Uni started yesterday :-S

Nah.. it was quite interesting. The subject was Multicultural Counselling.. meet people from all walks of life there. Our lecturer, Dr. Christine, is half Dutch half Japanese and has a bubbly personality... and talks a lot. It's great to be back studying!!!! No no.. I'm not joking.. it means that one step closer to the end of my degree. I can't wait to go back to NZ

Work started last week. It was dreadful and I don't expect this week going to be any different. I've decided on Friday that I am definitely leaving this job. Unfortunately, I can't until I found a new job... and I hope that will happen soon or else I would go crazy, get myself fired, and ruin my career record!!!

Life is still so-so.. Nothing exciting... I would certainly be super busy until the end of November with 4 classes/week. I can't deny that I love what I am studying. I came across this article on "Mercy Centre" in this month edition of Marie Claire (which I personally think is the best glossy magazine out there). It's about a house that acts as a shelther, playgourd, and school for 250 orphans... 50 of them got infected by HIV. I think it must be some divine intervention that I come across this article *looking up towards heaven*.. You see, I was beginning to doubt about my choice of Master degree and start to wonder whether this is what I want to be doing. Seeing this article and see all the pictures of these kids.. I realised that I've come the right way.. made the right decisions. They have this programe called "Sanook My Saturday" (Sanook means fun) and basically these kids get to go out and see cool places in Thailand or get to do cool activities like dancing. Gosh, I would love to be able to teach these kids to dance.. I wish Ben was here and maybe we could teach them Ceroc and send them into dance competition!!!

Ooooh...that is such a wonderful idea (must write that down!!)

Anyway. I can't volunteer in that programe coz I have class on Saturdays.. bummer!! Maybe next semester...